Heya guys! What's up? I hope y'all are doing good! Anyways, in case you didn't notice this is part 3 of, Save Myself, Yourself. And no I will not summarize parts 1 and 2 for y'all!

Disclaimer:

Any similarities between this story and r/l are authentic coincidence!!!
This story is rated, 'T' for teen- contains mild language.

P.S.
There is also Spanish- translations are at the bottom of the pages!

Jason sat there. Simply sat- nothing more and nothing less.

'How can I still love her? What am I...-' He couldn't bare to listen to himself any longer. He loved Kyla... then again he also thought that years ago.

He smirked, remembering Kyla when she first stepped foot into the campus pool hall...

*flashback*

"Well hello..." Jason's friend Carl gasped as a gorgeous burnette appeared.

"Hi," She greeted them. Jason looked her up and down. She continued as she approached them, "Yeah, yeah, I know, I got a great body- whatever."

"Oh! Total diss, man!" Carl and some of the guys screeched over the band.

Jason blushed- hard.

As she spoke with Carl, Jason continued to study every inch of her- again. She had deep, dark, chocolate-like brown eyes, and beautiful lushish-looking hair and of course like she said- 'A great body'.

"You got a name, beautiful-gorgeous?" Jason smirked. She thrusted daggers into him.

She answered with, "No, hablos ingles." *

Jason rolled his eyes and responded in Spanish too, "Si, hablos espanol. Como te llamas?" *

"Me llamo, Kyla, gracias, y tu?" *

*No, speak English*
*Yes, I speak Spanish. What is your name?*
*My name is, Kyla, thank you, and you?*

Jason's friends began to leave, although he didn't even notice....

"De nada. Me llamo, Jason, gracias." Jason replied, "Como estas?" *

Kyla gigled, "Okay, this is really getting annoying."

"Tell me about it.." Jason blushed a tad bit.

*Your welcome, my name is Jason, thank you. How are you?*

(end flashback)

"Austin, stop it!" Kyla laughed hysterically as Austin tickled her.

"Spoil the fun, why don't cha?" He gave a fake frown that only lasted for about five seconds.

They sat down on a park bench. Kyla had been seeing Austin for about two months now. And Jason was transferred to Veronaville- not such great news. Ren and Brandom had gotten back together. And the world was still rotating around the sun; life was going great!

"So...?" Austin sighed as he twiddled his thumbs, "Want to take a walk?"

"Sure." Kyla agreed.

As Jason walked along one of the more "private" pathways, he began to think more and more about 'her'. He stopped. He heard voices coming from probably ten-fiften feet in front of him. He turned to the path bearing to the left. And being Jason and all, he spied on them from behind a tree.

"... I still seriously can't believe you're still single! There's gotta be something wrong with you." Surprisingly came Kyla's voice.

"Well, ya know.." Said the nervous guy.

"No, I don't." Kyla shifted her gaze- as she always did. "Do you get the creepy feeling that someone's watching us?"

"Nope." The guy shrugged.

"Whatever," She sighed, "well, I better get going, bye Austin."

As Kyla walked off, the guy she was with groaned and of course Jason continued to spy on him.

As soon as he was certain Kyla was out of hearing range, he began to talk to himself- quite loudly. "Why is this so hard? It should not be this difficult, in fact, it shouldn't even be difficult!"

Jason zoned out, as he hungered to cry for the first time in his life. He wanted answers and he wanted them now.

'Time doesn't matter,' Chantle tried to convince herself.

She still couldn't bare the thought her her perfect Austin cheating on her. She had been right, though, about him and herself. She meant absolutely nothing to him, N-O-T-H-I-N-G. She wanted to leave him, but she couldn't bring herself to even confront him with... this issue!

'Where would I go, anyways?' I didn't even go to college, I have no job, no money- no nothing!' SHe thought angrily.

Chantle walked into the bright pink nursery- too much light, she hated it. She looked upon her beautiful baby girls- Emma and Ebony. How could someone not love them? Austin was that exception in this case.

He hated his kids, though probably less than he hated her.

If it wasn't for the light reddish hair they had, they'd be the female versions of Austin!

It was so much harder to look at them, it seemed, to Chantle. Then something hit her- what she had told Austin so many months ago, she had said something horrible..

'... just have an affair then!'

Maybe it was her fault...

'No, it was his fault, right? Yes, it was he was the one that-- who am I kidding? It WAS my fault...'

Jason stood in Kyla's apartment that evening.

"Why aren't you talking to me?" Came Kyla's voice.

"Just.. I am." Jason mummbled.

Kyla appeared in front of him. "What's up?"

"Who were you with this afternoon at the park?" He wasted no time in asking.

"My boyfriend." Kyla narrowed her eyes, "Why?"

Jason was shocked by this news. Why did he have to even ask?

"Does he have a name? Does he love you? How much do you know about him?" Jason questioned.

"Look, Jason, it's none of your business! But if you must know, his name is Austin." Kyla said.

"I bet he's using you or something." Jason finally said about ten seconds later.

"Oh yeah, like you used me? Yeah, Jason, I'm sure. Look, I've known him since I was like sixteen- I know him." Kyla frowned.

"Bull!" Jason exclaimed, "Some people change..."

"Well you certainly haven't! You're still the sex-hungry, stupid, good-looking bastard, I met in college!" Kyla spat. "All you ever wanted was sex, and if you couldn't get it with one woman, you'd... you'd... you'd do something!"

"Well, th-"

"I wasn't finished!" Kyla cried, "Why didn't you love me? Why didn't you, Jason? How come, huh? I gave you everything, didn't I? I gave you my freedom, my heart and everything else that meant anything! And then you just...- why didn't you want to love me.. why?"

'But he'd leave me eventually- wouldn't he?' Chantle thought.

"Your so cold, but you,
feel alive?" Came the lyrics from 'So Cold'.

Chantle began mumbling the chorus over and over in her head. She then procceed to the bathroom.

As she still hummed the chorus, she began rapidly chopping away at her hair. It became shorter and shorter by the second...

Until---

It looked like so. It wasn't horrible looking at all, but it was definetly shorter- definetly.

"Chantle? Are you home?" shouted Austin.

She didn't respond.

There came a knock on the bathroom door as Austin said, "Chantle, are you okay?"

Silence.

"Chantle?"

Silence.

"Chantle. please come out."

Still she didn't answer.

Austin sighed, "Are you alright in there?"

Finally, seeing that he wasn't going to leave her alone, she replied, "I'm not okay."

'She's right..- damnit, why- how could I- damnit, damnit!" Jason beat himself mentally.

He had left Kyla's right after she had finished. She was right, though. He WAS all of those things. But he wasn't NOW, he had changed- for the better, for Kyla. Now he just wanted her back... he HAD to find a way..

But the real question was, how?

Be happy it wasn't a cliffhanger! lol. Think of all the mean, evil deeds I could've done.

Aight, I'd like to say something about the note above- you don't have to sign my gb, it's not like I'm going to murder you or something! I just put it at the time.. 'cuz.. I have no clue! Also, remember that the lyric page is after this one.

Anyways, cya l8er guys and thank you so much for taking the time to read my story! Love ya- in a platonica kind of way!

The glorious lyric page, lol. I love this page- I think it's my favorite!

Song: I'm Not Okay (this is NOT the whole song!!!)
Artist: My Chemical Romance (MCR)
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Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say,
I never want to let you down or,
Have you go, it's better of this way,
For all the dirty looks the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out of the second floor?
(Chorus)
I'm not okay,
I'm not okay,
I'm not okay,
You wear me out,
(end chorus)
What will it take to show you,
That it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay)....
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