THE CALIENTE AFFAIRS: SEASON TWO
by ThomasMcNab
"The Fetal Anthem" words by Lisasmith. www.akalisasmith.com

PART ONE
Prologue: "Time"
Chapter One: "The Truth"
Chapter Two: "Fallen"
Chapter Three: "Gone"
Chapter Four: "Sibling Comfort"
Chapter Five: "The Gift Of Life"

Prologue: "Time"

"It sure has been hectic the past couple of days" Sighed Nina as she closed the bedroom door. Walking over to Don she smiled and pulled him towards her body. "I feel like I haven't seen you in ages, I'm so glad you didn't have to work tonight."

"Me too!" Don replied as he gently rubbed Nina's arms and let his lips ever so softly brush against her cheek.
"You won't get into trouble will you, at work?" Nina worried.
"If I do, I don't care!" Don laughed as he continued kissing Nina.
"You can't think like that, we have responsibilities now. You have to provide for our child." Nina told Don.
"And I will, I'll look after this kid. And the next, and the next!" Don continued.

"Whoa, slow down! I'm not a machine." Nina laughed.
"Why not, it's what you want isn't it?" Don asked.
"Yes, but I was under the impression that we'd take our time." Nina replied.
"But Nina, don't you remember?" Don looked at Nina with a puzzled expression. She looked back at him equally puzzled. "You don't have a lot of time left..."

Nina still lay at the bottom of the stairs. In her unconscious-sleep she had dreamt of being with Don. Unfortunately for Nina, Don had stormed out of the house in anger just a few minutes ago and her twin sister Dina had moved out. No one knew of her accident, and so time passed as Nina slowly drifted deeper and deeper into unconsciousness.

Chapter One: "The Truth"

Dina smiled as she waved goodbye to Mortimer. Typically, he had left it until the very last day to buy Christmas presents. But Dina understood that he may have previously wondered if he was wasting his money buying Dina a present. Luckily though, that wasn't the case now. Together they were having a baby and to Dina that was all that mattered, that Mortimer was going to be the father of her baby. Even if the reality of the situation was that he wasn't...

Alex, her step-son, caught her attention as she went back inside the house. She noticed he was looking at her strangely. Sitting down next to him, it wasn't long before he cleared his throat and asked, "So, you and my dad. Are you like, getting divorced?"

"Why do you think that?" Dina laughed.
"Well, that's basically what my dad said to me." Alex replied.
"Your dad said that me and him were getting a divorce?" Dina asked.

"Well not in those exact words. He just told me that he'd come to realise you both wanted different things out of the relationship and that it wasn't going to work." Dina sighed as she began to realise just how close she came to losing everything. 'I mean, having an affair, what was I thinking' she asked herself. It seemed that when they were apart Dina felt ashamed and confused about the things she had done with Ed. But when they were together, her doubts seemed to disappear and he made her feel like a completely different person. With Ed, she didn't have to worry about constantly looking attractive or saying the right things. But with Mortimer, she always felt like she had something to prove. Whether it was to his daughter or her ex-boyfriend, Don, it seemed everyone was waiting for her to make a mistake.

"We just had an argument, that's all. Trust me Alex, we are not getting a divorce. But I do have some news to tell you." Dina started as she smiled.

"I'm pregnant." She said, throwing up her hands as if to surprise Alex even more. But Dina saw from the look on his face that that wasn't needed.

"Whoa!" Alex said slowly. A baby sibling had been the furthest thought from his mind just a few seconds ago. But to his own astonishment he smiled and congratulated Dina. "Does my dad know?" He asked.
"He does now, I guess when he spoke to you it was before I told him." Dina cleared things up.
"That's lucky." Alex remarked.
"How so?"
"Well, I got the impression from my dad that it was definitely over between you two. It's lucky you got pregnant now otherwise it might have been the end of your relationship."

Dina laughed nervously. If only Alex knew how true he was, she thought. That even though she had known about her pregnancy for weeks, she had chosen today to tell Mortimer because of what he had written in his will. Her only worry now was the same worry that had stopped her from telling everyone she was pregnant in the first place, that her baby wasn't Mortimer's. Nina knew the truth about her affair, but she thought Dina had had an abortion. That was going to be difficult to explain, she thought. She wasn't even sure if she could explain it to herself. There were so many lies, Dina said to herself, how could she bring up a child and teach it about honesty when she herself was being so dishonest. She couldn't stand it anymore, she had to know the truth. Was the father of her baby Mortimer or Ed?

Chapter Two: "Fallen"

Don had been thinking about his relationship with Nina for forty-minutes before he decided to come back to the house. He assumed that Nina was at work and that way he could think about it some more in the peace and solitude of his own house... Or was it even his house anymore, he asked himself. Maybe he would also use the time to pack up some of his belongings and leave. Surely it wouldn't come to that, he once again asked himself. He was so confused, one part of him wanted the same things Nina wanted, marriage, kids and all the added extras. But then the other part had to question everything, will I be able to provide for my child? Am I throwing my life away? So many questions, luckily he had the time to rationally think it through.

But before Don realised it, time was up and he had to make a decision now, before Nina's time ran out. Don didn't know what had happened, he just knew Nina needed help.

Crying out her name, he ran over to her lifeless body and checked for signs of breathing. She was, but her breath was like a whisper of wind on a hot summers day.

Quickly, Don rushed for the phone and demanded an ambulance. When Don came back to where Nina was laid, he began to sob as all he could do was wait for an ambulance.

Elsewhere in Pleasantview, it had now been over an hour since Angela Pleasant had witnessed her ex-boyfriend in the arms of her sister. She had ran up to her room and began to cry, but after ten minutes she composed herself and checked to see if Lilith was in her bedroom. She wasn't, and Angela was most certainly not going to discuss this downstairs in front of her parents. So back in her bedroom she went, ten minutes later she checked to see if Lilith was there, and she repeated this, almost like clockwork, until Lilith was finally in her room.
"Can I come in?" She asked. Lilith paused for a moment and with a slight quiver answered.

"What do you want?" Lilith asked. Angela could see past her facade, and she was sure Lilith knew this, so why should she pretend?
"I want to know why you were kissing my boyfriend?" Lilith turned away but glanced at Angela from the side.
"Ex-boyfriend." She corrected her sister. Angela half-heartedly laughed in disbelief.
"You think that makes a goddamn bit of difference?" She yelled. Lilith threw her hands up in defence.
"Look I don't know what you think you saw but me and Dustin did not kiss."
"I can't believe you're denying it." Angela said. Lilith eyes fell to the floor as she confessed.
"I'm telling you the truth, Dustin went to kiss me but I refused." Angela put her hands up to stop Lilith.

"Whoa, whoa! Wait, Dustin tried to kiss you?" Angela asked. Lilith paused and tried not to anger her sister.
"This isn't about blame..."

"The hell it isn't! You know, I knew that after everything we've been through that even you wouldn't stoop this low." Angela said as she finally had got the answers she had been waiting for. Lilith sighed and corrected her sister.

"That's not technically true." Lilith began as Angela looked on in confusion. "I sort of am... In love with Dustin." Lilith ashamedly admitted to her sister. Angela screamed through gritted teeth and punched her hand as she shouted at Lilith.

"Five times I asked you. I asked you if you liked him because I knew you did and I knew if I could just get you to admit it to me then we wouldn't have to go through all of this." Angela revealed to her sister.
"That's not true, I wouldn't have admitted this at all before today because I didn't feel the way I do now." Lilith told her sister in all honesty.
"Stop it! When I broke up with Dustin he was ready to leave and never come back. But you chose that exact moment to make your move on him." Angela theorised.

"That's not true! I didn't have to make any moves on him, he did it all by himself." Lilith replied to her sisters accusations.
"So you admit that you had moves to make!" Angela trapped Lilith as she let out an exasperated groan.
"That's not what I meant, you're only hearing what you want to hear and it's not the truth." Lilith told her sister in desperation.
"So what is the truth?" Angela asked as the room feel silent. Catching her breath, Lilith walked over to her bed and relaxed.

Angela joined her and sat on the end. Finally, though very quiet, Lilith told her sister the truth.
"We're in love." she admitted. Angela looked at her sister confused, she couldn't be angry. Angela knew how her sister felt long before Lilith had even realised. But to propose that they were in love, it was just ridiculous.
"You're not in love." She told Lilith.
"You don't know the way he looks at me. The way he looked at me today and practically professed his love for me."

"Um, I think would know because I sure as hell saw you looking at him like that." Angela shot back.
"He obviously had to hide it when you were around so you wouldn't get hurt."
"Stop it." Angela asked her sister.
"If you could have seen his face after you broke up with him, he couldn't hide it any longer."
"Stop it." Angela asked once again.
"He looked into my eyes as I comforted him and we just knew..."
"Stop it!" Angela screamed.

"He is not in love with you." Angela told her sister.
"I know it's messed up but I can't deny how I feel." Lilith pleaded with her sister.
"And Dustin? You sit here and confidently assume how he feels, but you don't know that." Angela reminded her sister.
"I know." She claimed. "I also know that, despite all of this, I chose not to kiss him because you're my sister and your feelings come first." Angela rolled her eyes.
"Oh so I should be thanking you for not sticking your tongue down my boyfriend's throat." Angela replied sarcastically.

"It's not like that." Lilith replied.
"Then what is it like, because it sure as hell sounds to me like you want me to congratulate you for not kissing my boyfriend." Angela explained to Lilith.
"He's your ex, don't forget what you did to him. He came to me because I was his friend and he needed comforting. I can't help the way he feels about me." Angela groaned as she felt herself going round in a circle.
"But that's just it, you don't know how he feels."
"And you do?" Lilith challenged.
"I thought I did." Angela slipped out, revealing to her sister more than she would have liked to at this moment in time. The room fell silent again as Lilith sighed.
"So what do we do now?"

Chapter Three: "Gone"

"What's taking so long?" Don yelled as he impatiently waited in the hospital corridor. When Don arrived the paramedics took Nina straight into a room and he was told to wait until Nina's doctor spoke to him, but that was nearly two hours ago. Every possible scenario had ran through Don's mind during that time, including the realisation that Nina could die.

Luckily, before he went crazy with worry, Nina's Doctor finally came out to speak with Don.
"Do you mind keeping your voice down sir." The doctor ordered.
"What's happening? Is Nina okay?" Don demanded to know.
"Don Lothario? You brought Nina in didn't you?" Don nodded as the doctor brought Don to one side.

"My name's Doctor Crane, can you tell me what happened?"
"I can't, I don't know. I just came back and she was on the floor at the bottom of the stairs. She must have fallen." Don replied, his voice slightly quivering with worry.
"So you were out when the incident occurred?"
"Yes. Please tell me if she's alright." Don pleaded.

"Nina didn't sustain too much damage from the fall. There's two possibilities of why this is; she was already unconscious before the fall or most of the impact from the fall was cushioned by..." The doctor trailed off as he looked into Don's eyes.
"What is it? You said she was okay and... The baby?" Don said, only remembering now that not only was Nina's life in danger but her unborn child's.
"Don, I'm afraid that Nina suffered a miscarriage. The probable cause was the fall and it's likely that if Nina hadn't have been pregnant she would have suffered much more serious injuries." Doctor Crane said gently.

"I know that won't be of any relief to you but trust me, Nina is lucky to be walking away from this unhurt." Don simply stared into thin air as he thought about Nina's child. Their child, dead.
"So Nina's not hurt?" Don stammered out.
"When she regains consciousness she will understandably be confused and very emotional. We have a councillor waiting by her bedside who's trained to help Nina cope with her loss."

Don began to well up as he realised that Nina didn't even know she had lost her baby. For a moment he wished she wouldn't wake up so she didn't have to experience the pain. If he felt bad, he couldn't imagine how Nina would feel when she realised. Although Don suddenly began to process some of the doctor's comments and realised that being pregnant had possibly saved Nina from death.

"When can I see her." Don asked.
"When she wakes up the councillor will speak with her and I'm afraid to tell you she may not want to see you and if she doesn't I'm going to have to respect her wishes. It's entirely up to her." Don realised that last time they spoke Nina had practically told him to never come back.
"I'm going to wait here anyway." Don persisted.
"That's alright. If you want to grab anything to eat or drink there's a cafe downstairs in the lobby." Doctor Crane informed Don.
"I'm just going to sit here if that's alright?" Doctor Crane nodded and cleared his throat.
"Don, you say you were out when Nina fell. Was anyone else in the house?" He asked.
"Not that I know of, I left and came back assuming Nina would have gone to work. Oh god, I should call work and tell them. Oh god, I need to call Dina." Don realised.
"There's a payphone down the hall." Don nodded but stood there, unable to even contemplate the words he would use to tell Dina her twin had lost her baby.

Chapter Four "Sibling Comfort"

After an extremely eventful morning, Alex was regretting his pre-New Years resolution that he had decided to make last night. As he stood on his sister's porch and greeted her, his promise to 'come out of the closet' to her had previously seemed like such a good idea. But now Dina was pregnant and his dad was arguing with her. Sure, Dina had reassured him that their quarrelling was over, but he knew his father better than Dina did and he was sure that when Mortimer had told Alex that he and Dina were breaking-up he meant it.

Now all Alex wanted was a peaceful and uneventful Christmas, with no focus on himself whatsoever.
"Are you excited for Christmas?" Cassandra asked.
"Yeah, a little." Alex hesitated.
"A little? Why, what's wrong?" Cassandra wondered.
"Oh it's just being in a new house I guess, it'll be my first Christmas away from here."

"How do you think I feel? I've got this whole house to myself. Please say you'll come over to spend the night!" Cassandra hoped.
"Oh, well I was just going to stop by to give you some presents." Alex started.
"Please stay." Cassandra pleaded.
"Well I guess, I mean... Can we go inside and talk?" Alex proposed.
"Of course! Wait until you see what I've done with the place." Cassandra told Alex as she showed him indoors.

"...And I moved the dining room into here after I realised that the same floorboards were underneath the carpet. Isn't it wonderful?" Cassandra asked as she gave him a guided tour of downstairs.
"It's so different. But in a good way." Alex reassured his sister.
"Well I didn't want to go crazy and redecorate the whole house right before Christmas but just a few changes here and there ended up working a treat."

"And then of course with the house different I couldn't just celebrate Christmas in my old boring clothes. So I got myself an early present!" Cassandra smiled as she showed off her new outfit and glasses.
"Hey, did you change your hair?" Alex joked as he received a playful punch on the shoulder. Hearing Cassandra laughed made him feel at ease, he knew that it would just be stupid to put it off any longer.
"I guess everyone's feeling the need for a change. Even me!" Alex started.
"I noticed." Cassandra replied.
"You did?" Alex asked in a surprised manner.
"Sure! It's obvious someone's trying to impress the girls by growing a goatee!" Cassandra laughed as she pulled on Alex's cheeks. Alex smiled but felt himself turning a bright shade of red. He told Cassandra to knock it off and he went to look at her Christmas display.

"We don't usually have the tree here." Alex remembered.
"Well like I said, it was time for a change." Cassandra reiterated her previous statement.
"Yeah." Alex agreed as he procrastinated even more. "Are all these presents yours?"
"No! Some are mine and some are Darren's but most are Dirk's. Darren's been going crazy this year, I told you he started making some serious simoleons from his art? Well, he wanted to treat Dirk. I call it spoiling him but you know what fathers are like, they never want to hear the truth." Cassandra stated. Alex picked up on the slight resentment she still had against Mortimer. Whether it was because of his relationship with Dina or due to the fact he still denied his first wife, Bella, left him Alex didn't know. But having brought it up, Alex began to think about it. With his own mother abandoning him at such a young age, naturally he feared rejection and abandonment again. Cassandra was not only his sister and best friend, but a part of him felt as though she was his mother.

This was the woman that had practically raised him as her own child after Bella left. It was this that was keeping Alex from opening up to Cassandra.
"Anyway, is this what you wanted to talk about?" Cassandra remembered why Alex had agreed to come inside. Alex hesitated and tried to find the words but his confidence was waning. He thought back to the previous week when he had come out to Lilith Pleasant. Rather than being hard he found that easy, Alex wouldn't have been bothered if Lilith had rejected him. After Dirk and Meadow, he was actually expecting to be judged. But Lilith had surprised him by not only accepting his secret but by also becoming a close friend. It was that event that had given him the confidence to come upon the decision to tell Cassandra he was gay.

Alex wanted so desperately to confess all of his thoughts and fears to his sister in hopes she could cleanse his soul and shine some light onto what it was he was going through. Throughout most of his life it was Cassandra he had had to look up to, to turn to for guidance. But at that one moment when he needed her the most, the words would not come. Fear clouded his judgement, and so silent he remained, as Cassandra looked on clueless. Just like everyone else around him, Alex thought to himself.

Though fortunate it would turn out, as Alex realised, when Darren Dreamer merrily wandered down from the first floor of the Goth mansion. Alex turned towards Darren as he let out a half-hearted 'Hey' and continued into the kitchen. Surprised, but not shocked, Alex looked at Cassandra for answers.

"I'd be really happy if you'd join me and the guys for Christmas dinner tomorrow." Cassandra wondered.
"Guys?" Alex asked.
"Dirk and Darren! I know Dad invited us over but after Thanksgiving..." Alex shuddered as Cassandra made him think back to his foolish act on Thanksgiving.
Pausing in mid-sentence, Cassandra reassured Alex, "I'm sure everything's okay now Alex, Dirk's really changed a lot recently. If you want you can go upstairs and talk to him."
"Upstairs?" Alex asked in a slight high-pitched squeak as Cassandra's living arrangements began to confuse Alex even more.
"Oh, he's staying in your old room during Christmas vacation." And on that note Alex quickly excused himself and went to leave. Unfortunately for him though Cassandra was right behind him.

"Alex!" She said as she stopped him from leaving, "it's not a problem is it?" She asked. It wasn't really a problem, just the thought of Dirk sleeping in what used to be Alex's room sent Alex all funny inside! He really did not need those thoughts again.
"It's not a problem for me, was he okay with it?" Alex queried, under the assumption Dirk had and would forever more hate anything and everything 'Goth'.
"Dirk was fine. I mean Alex, it hasn't been your bedroom for a while but if it's a problem..."
"No, it's just." Alex paused, again on the brink of wanting to confess everything, yet cowardly falling in on himself with pity.
"You wanted to tell me something?" Cassandra asked.

"You know, I was just unclear of the whole Dreamer situation and was embarrassed to admit it because, well, you're my sister and I should know things like that." Alex half confessed. Cassandra reached for Alex and smiled.
"We really haven't been keeping in touch have we? Sometimes I feel like this family's divided into two halves with you right in-between."
"That's me. Confused, in the middle of two halves, not quite sure which one is right." Alex confessed, although it was secretly how he was feeling about himself rather than his family.
"You'll always have a room here. I don't care what Darren says, if you want to come back Dirk can just take the sofa. Don't ever feel like you're not welcome." Alex hugged Cassandra and smiled, filling him with the confidence he so desperately wanted. He understood now wasn't the right time. All of what Alex had needed to hear was for the sake of his own mind. And Cassandra had done just that, for the first time since he had felt this way, Alex was happy.

Dina began to leave, frustrated her attempts to resolve her guilty conscience would probably go unresolved. She had made the spontaneous decision to take a paternity test only to find out the list of things she needed to take the test were complicated. And the risk of her infidelity being discovered far outweighed her need to know who the father of her unborn child was. After all, Ed worked at Sim City General Hospital as well as...

"Don?" Dina cried as she turned the corner to be faced with a solemn looking Don Lothario. He stood up and Dina was greeted with an emotional hug. Before Dina could ask what was going on he looked into Dina's eyes and sighed.
"When did you get the message?" He asked. Dina struggled to find an answer, hoping that she could fake an understanding so as not to be caught.
"About... I came as soon as I heard. What's the news?" Dina thought fast as she replied.
"I think she's awake, but I haven't been able to see her yet." Don informed Dina.
"Nina? What... I mean how?" Dina panicked as she tried to find out what had happened without Don realising she didn't already know.

"Like I said on the phone, Nina had an accident and..." Don trailed off and sat down. Dina joined him and tried to hide the frantic worry from showing.
"And? You know your message wasn't all that clear. I think it..." Dina began to make up an excuse but Don interrupted her again.

"She's lost the baby. The doctor said that if she hadn't have been pregnant her injuries would have been much more serious." Dina's mouth formed a shocked 'O' shape as she sat there in silence, unable to speak. "I don't know how I'm supposed to take that. God, I wish I didn't even know." Don cried out.
"How did she fall?" Dina asked.
"The stairs. Didn't I say that? Of course I didn't, I probably left the shortest, most-cryptic message ever. I've just been so consumed with worry and guilt."
"Guilt?" Dina asked.

"We had a stupid argument, she told me to leave and I did. I was gonna turn straight around and apologise but I thought if I gave her time to cool down and think about things she'd be more accepting. I was a complete jerk." Don said regrettably.
"So how do you know she fell down the stairs?" Dina asked once more.
"She was at the... Well, I guess I don't. Why, what are you implying?" Don asked sharply.
"Nothing! Nothing that won't have already gone through the mind of her doctor." Dina tried to break it to Don gently that Nina's accident could be considered as suspicious.
"Your saying you think someone attacked her?" Don replied.

"I'm saying that we don't know what happened until Nina tells us." Dina replied, hoping to end the conversation.
"And what if she doesn't know? She could have blacked out, the doctor said she could have been unconscious before she fell." Don said in a panic.
"I'm sorry Don, I shouldn't have said anything. It's obvious this is just a tragic accident and I'm spinning this into something completely different." Don stopped breathing so quickly and tried to calm down.
"You're right, she'll remember, she just needs to be around familiar faces." Don said as he went to hold Dina's hand for comfort. Don's touch reminded her that last time she and her sister had spoken it was on bad terms. Nina knew of Dina's dilemma regarding the father of her child, to walk into Nina's room on the pretence of comforting her would be inconsiderate.

"I can't Don." Dina said as she stood up.
"What do you mean you can't? You have to be there you're her sister." Don raised his voice.
"How am I supposed to...? I just can't." Dina said as she began to head towards the exit once more.
"You know this is so typical you! What am I supposed to tell her when she asks for her sister?" Don yelled.
"She'll understand." Dina reasoned as she left the ward. On the way out Dina shook her head and began to cry. 'How can she ever understand' Dina thought in the back of her mind.

Chapter Five: "The Gift Of Life"

Before Don could put serious thought into why Dina left all of a sudden, Doctor Crane came out into the waiting room. He was smiling and Don stood up, hoping to hear good news.

"Nina's doing just fine. Medically speaking that is. She was understandably distraught over losing her baby but she told me she wishes to see you." Doctor Crane told Don.
"What did the you find out about her accident?" Don asked, Dina's wild thoughts ringing in the back of his mind.
"I held back from asking any details at this moment in time as I felt she may become even more emotional retelling her story. However I believe she may open up to you if you're that desperate to know." He replied.
"No, it can wait. I just want to see her."

Doctor Crane showed Don into Nina's room. "I've got a visitor." He said to Nina as they both went in.
"Don." Nina said with subdued glee.
"Is there anything I can get you two?"
"No Eddie, we'll be fine thanks." Nina said to Doctor Crane as he smiled and left. 'Eddie?' Don thought as he got the impression Nina had gotten to know 'Eddie' Crane rather well in the short space of time. Scolding himself he realised this was no time to be jealous and he walked up to Nina's bed.

"Will we be fine?" He said, unable to come up with a conversation starter of his own. Nina looked so drained in front of Don, he couldn't hold back his tears like he wanted to.

"Please don't cry, you'll just get me going again and I don't think I have the energy." Nina honestly told Don.
"I'm sorry, I'm just... So sorry." Don apologised for everything.
"Don't be sorry Don." Nina said as she let out a depressed sigh.

Shuffling off the bed Don was amazed to see Nina try to stand up. "Don't try and get up you need to rest." Don told her.
"I need to face you." Nina said as Don held her hands. "I know you're just going to put this down to the shock but I can tell you I haven't stopped thinking about it since I realised." Nina started.
"Realised what?" Don asked confused.
"That we're so wrong for each other." Nina replied as she looked into Don's confused and hurt eyes. "I stick by what I said this morning. And given the events..." Nina trailed off as she stammered and clearly held back her tears that were eagerly waiting to fall. "I'm calling the engagement off." Nina said firmly as Don stood back in shock.

"I'm sorry I put you through this but please don't shut me out." Don pleaded.
"I'm not saying it's for definite but I don't want to have the drama that is you and me hanging over my head whilst I try and grieve. Just, please say you'll wait?" Nina asked.
"You can't go through this alone." Don demanded as he paused and embraced Nina. "That's why I'll wait forever, as long as it means we'll eventually be together." Don whispered to Nina as she thought about her child and finally let her tears fall.

Why must I think about,
the whole damn magic of life?
I can't take it all in stride.
And if I somehow manage,
to live through your desperate damage,
Would there be nothing I can't do?

Oh these odds you give me,
wreck and tap my nerve,
I won't make it to your world.
You choke me up and kill me,
with your love of dependency.
That love was meant to spark my life.

And I won't breathe air.
And I won't be there.

If you can't can't guarantee my safety,
I might as well die.
Put yourself in my place mommy,
Release my life.

END OF PART ONE